This is Turquoise

TurquoiseIf you want to skip straight to the playlist, here’s the link! Turquoise is bittersweet, nostalgic and a little angsty.

Since this is the first post of this kind, I’m going to get distracted on Twitter for 45 minutes before explaining what I’m doing here. Clearly this lockdown is messing with my concentration. Anyway, I have these colour-coded playlists that fit different moods. I stole this idea from my friend Ray a couple years back and I haven’t regretted it for a second. Sometimes it’s hard to explain feelings, so colours help me distinguish and name them.

Let’s get into these potatoes. Since this is the first playlist feature, I’ll do a little explanation before I head into it. Every month I’ll make a little post with one of my mood ring-esque playlists and do a bit of a feature on what makes a song fit that mood. Every year should bring a new evolution of these playlists as their feeling become even more distinct, but for now I’ll stick with my original nine.

This is turquoise. You’ve already read my short explanation and I felt like now was the best time to bring a little nostalgia into the world. Mainly because I’m feeling a little nostalgic for two weeks ago, before my holiday in Peru became indefinite.

There’s a few cornerstone tracks that I want to highlight specifically. Let’s start with All Time Low’s Last Young Renegade. You may have seen it in my yearly playlists and there’s a good reason. This track makes me feel a certain way even to this day. I just can’t explain it any other way than turquoise. It’s simple to play and easy to sing along, yet it speaks to my personal memories so deeply.

The second cornerstone is Nowadays by Valleyheart. Out of all the tracks on this list, it’s probably the one that you haven’t heard of. This track is somber and sad, longing for happier days and a lack of depression. That’s a feeling I can relate to a lot more than I’d like to admit, which is why this track was one I had to highlight.

Let’s talk about Broadside’s Come & Go. Out of all of the tracks, this one cuts the deepest and represents the darkest corners of this playlist. Relationships can be messy and it’s especially hard to see someone moving on without you. I won’t spoil the whole song, but I’ve cried while listening to this song and I rarely cry while listening to music.

Some of you might know how much I love Movement’s Daylily. While it’s also a song about depression, it’s about wanting a brighter future for someone you love very dearly. Pink cloud days are a metaphor for good days, so how much better is a pink cloud summer for someone you love.

Finally, I want to talk about Castlefield’s Escape. I like to think of this song as photographs of memories and the author’s response to them in the moment. It conveys a feeling much deeper than the photographs themselves would convey. I don’t know maybe I’m just soft.

If you haven’t figured it out, these segments are just an excuse for me to talk about my favourite songs. If you missed the link at the top of the page, here it is again. Let me know what you think and stay safe everyone.

The Ryan Music Awards 2019

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Welcome one and all to the Ryan Music Awards for 2019, as well as the showcasing of my playlist for 2019! If you haven’t been following my Twitter, I’ve been posting my top 5 listens every week for the first half of the year. After that I just posted something every month because life got in the way. Having the list really helped me pick the songs I was obsessed with earlier on in the year, because if I’m honest, I forgot which songs I liked…

Many of the tracks on this list are songs that I discovered this year and surprisingly, none are repeat offenders from last year’s list, even though some of the honourable mentions are. I honestly can’t believe how quickly this year has passed, it’s been fucking crazy. I won’t go into too many details, but just know that I’m walking into 2020 a homeless man.

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You’re Not Alone

Yeah I know I haven’t posted anything in ages and the last thing I posted was a dig at the catholic church, not a real story at all. For those of you who are out of the loop, May is mental health awareness month. That makes it the perfect time for me to reflect on my own mental health, as well as focusing on *insert name of secret project* (hint: it’s music related). Since I haven’t done anything for my non-existent fan base in a while, here it is, my playlist for Mental Health Awareness month.

This playlist is a reminder to myself that I’m not alone and neither are you. Sometimes life can feel like a fucking burden and all you feel is pain, but thankfully, that doesn’t last forever. All of the songs on this playlist come from different angles and perspectives, but they all touch on mental health in some way.

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Mixtape 2018

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I’ve always said that if you understand my relationship with music, you’ll uncover the deepest, darkest parts of me. Well, I’ve never actually said it and it’s definitely not true but whatever, it sound cool and makes me seem all dark and mysterious which is apparently an appealing trait. Anyway, I’ll shut up.

This year has been crazy for me. It’s cheesy, but I’ve grown so much as a person and my life has changed dramatically, for better or worse. For the most part, music has just been the soundtrack to my life, a way for me to relate to my feelings and understand myself better. Even though music has always been a part of me, I’ve dug so much deeper this year and it seems fair that I should put together my first mixtape. Well, technically it’s a playlist but mixtape sounds cooler.

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How Chester Bennington’s Death Impacted As It Is’ New Album

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Pop-Punk/Rock band As It Is recently released their third studio album, The Great Depression. Throughout the album, they deal with heavy themes of depression, suicide and the rise of sadness in our modern world. These themes are especially important following the recent deaths in the music industry. Avicii, Kyle Pavone and Chester Bennington’s deaths have rocked the world over the past two years.

Chester’s death hit especially close to home for rock band As It Is, leaving a hole in Linkin Park, a pillar of the rock community. As musicians do, the band wrote through the sadness and let Bennington inspire their latest record. In an attempt to fight stigma and the romanticisation of depression, they wrote and produced an album that tells a story that’s all too real.

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Taka’s Thankful for Bad Experiences?

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Japanese rock band ONE OK ROCK’s frontman Takahiro Moriuchi interviewed with Rockin’ On Japan in 2012, Taka had a lot of interesting things to say. For one, he was publicly going by the name Morita since 2005. Only a year after the interview did that change in 2013 as he seemingly came to terms with his birth name.

Why Morita and not Moriuchi? Morita was his mother, Masako’s maiden name. After conflict with his father, Shinichi and his parent’s divorce in 2005, Taka was left on his own, still a teenager. Rather than letting it be a negative experience, Taka made it positive. Somehow he pulled through. He joined his band ONE OK ROCK, found a job and his own place. His life changed dramatically and so did he, something he’s thankful for.

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